a rose is a rose

14 hours and a few days later i am back in san francisco not sure what i'm gonna do. so much has happened in the last 6 months and so many changes are headed my way. Living in Montreal was quite an experience starting with just the weather alone..summer was beautiful- so much energy in the streets and as soon as fall came to an end winter slowly crept in and brrr was it cold .....too cold for my californian blood. so here i am back in cali and my fiance in canada i didn't think the distance would bother me so much considering we've done it for the past 2 years but it does and well we'll see. its not as easy as it sounds it costs loads of money and time to process papers well enough of that i told myself i'd attempt to write here more frequently so now that my attention span has gone elsewhere i'll bring this to an end and ramble on another time
wishing everyone who actually reads this well and until next time

btw does anyone know how to delete past entries???

maybe i should write here more.....maybe tomorrow

if you like cream soda
vanilla smirinoff + gingerale = yum

i figured its been ages since i've updated..not much to report except i finished cosmetology school FINALLY!!!!! now i await my stateboard date to take my examination and hopefully get my liscense so its saturday afternoon and i've done absolutely nothing today ..slept in..got stuck watching antm on vh1...i wish lluvy hadn't got cut soo soon haha how pathetic am i???

so i went to cherry bar last night..my god it was awful ..the music sucked .the crowd ?? enough said....i just had a few drinks and then left...something told me i shoulda went to see the vanishing but at least i get to see them tomorrow night..
in other news i'm starting to plan my move to Montreal i'm feeling a bit sentimental i love san francisco but the change might be good for me....
back to antm

no new tattoo
no trip to los angeles ....
back in school

i never knew how much crap i have ..i've lived in the same apartment for nearly 8 years and i have three days to get it all out ..one might say i'm a tad bit stressed so anyways i'm quite excited about my upcoming trip to los angeles all i want to do is get my tattoo work in progress before i have to go back to school
in other news... i'm still trying to figure out what to do for new years if anything but i hope every one has a safe one

ho ho ho and i wish i had a bottle of rum *wink*

so much to do ..such little time
i have to pack all my shit and move only to do it again in a matter of a few months ..the hardest part is i'm starting to get cold feet ..i never really thought of
myself to be in a relationship where i'd move to another country i love san francisco but it also haunts me growing up here i have so ghosts ..its hard a part of me wants a new life..changes... but then the other part wants to hold on to the security i have here that i worked so many years to get ..one thing i know is that if it doesn't work i can always come back

in other news i have the next four weeks off from school..i can't believe i'm almost done ..soon i'll be a hairdresser on fire hahaha

tonight i might be going to club id first i have to start packing

off i go

scott peterson get ready to be somebody's bitch...

didn't your mamma ever teach you it's wrong to kill


rot in hell motherfucker

well here i am sitting around sipping wine anticipating this evening..i'm a tid bit excited i don't go out much anymore ..you see i've got the good ol days bitterness haha go ahead strike me down so yeh i'm going out to DNA tonight i hope to see some of you there

HAPPY HAUNTINGS

8 more months until i move to MONTREAL *gulp*

i've been a bit overwhelmed with all thats going on last weekend i flew to Burbank and crashed at my best friend zaras house the next day we drove out to san bernadino to arrowhead regional medical center to visit clay as we stood in the parking lot my body began to tense up and my hands were clammy as can be ....not knowing what i was about to walk into as it turned out Clay had come out of a coma his eyes stared bright and big .he seemed to have known who i was..i had a bit of relief.i was so happy at his progress and as the day went on his strength became more and more visible although i had a difficult time communicating with him because he could not mutter a word..it frightened me to think the what ifs in front of him so many questions ran through my mind "what if he can't walk? what if he may never be able to talk???? as the days go on each time i am grateful for the improvements he makes..today on the phone he was able to say i love you

the other night i received a phone call from my ex's brother it turns out that my ex was in a horrible car accident and lyes in a coma ... i'm at a loss ..

not much to update i stayed in last night.. i got caught up in a conversation on the computer with a boy i actually flew to meet in Miami months ago what a jerk he turned out to be and i didn't even get sex haha and now he wants me to come see him in Houston ..fuck you now that i'm happy with someone he wants me even more it never fails i swear thats the story of my life xxxxx

and nearly a bottle of wine later i decided to stay in and watch 13 going on 30...it was kinda of cute brought back those haunted memories of how hard it was going through adolesence after a few hors of sleep
i was awoken by a dream ..a dream that felt all to real i dreamt that i was with a girl someone i never met but someone that seemed so familiar and our lips embraced it was sweet and innocent and left me pondering

now its sunday morning and i am debating whether or not i should get dolled up and head out to the folsom street fair probally not but its a thought for now

off to get my double latte

so last night my adventure begun by visiting a classmate at a bar in potrero hill as i then preceeded to bottom of the hill to see my friends boyfriends band play 4 7&7's and a shot later we decided that we needed to dance so off to Barneveld we went for the siouxsie tribute at new wave city i must say i had fun but of course now my body wants to kick me in the arse well........... at least i didn't make an ass out of myself haha this time

johny ramone...you will be missed

gawd i hate computers ....sometimes

what an incredibly long day it has been and to think it's only frigggin monday..i was up way too early and my monday tuesday theory teacher seems to be clueless which only makes the time drag...tic tock
urrrrg

so the first thing i did after parking the car was walk to the corner store and buy a bottle of wine so here i sit typing away munching on grapes and sipping on some white wine...good news is i hit 600 hours only a thousand to go before i take the state board to become a cosmetologist wahoooooooooooooooooooooo

i had a difficult time sleeping last night i probally shoulda went out to the rickshaw to see death of a party and madelia last night but instead i got glued to watching the first season of nip/tuck i may be late in saying this but it's pretty good..so now that i'm up i must get off my fat arse and exercise ..sounds easy haha but its really not..i'm sure some of you feel my pain
so off i go

he is definitely a keeper **blushes**